Worth the Wait

 

 

               What is it in your life that you have been waiting in expectation of? Is it a new job? Is it a new home? A spouse? A season in your life to pass? According to Merriam Webster, to wait means ‘to stay in place in expectation of.’

                Waiting has looked vastly different for me as I have grown up. When I was young I eagerly awaited Mom’s chocolate chip cookies to come out of the oven; and I would not sleep the night before going to Adventureland! As a teenager I anxiously awaited getting my driver’s license. In college I expected to meet my husband (and thankfully did!). As a married woman I was excited to try to have children. In all of my life scenarios – my waiting has been unique.

                For me, the expectation of having a child can best be described as climbing up a steep roller coaster and not knowing what is on the other side. I am coming up on the five year anniversary of when our quest to have children originally started. The car of the roller coaster we have been on has been climbing, and climbing, and climbing -  - - - until finally, on May 22, 2013, our car peaked at the top of the track and began descending on a ride we would never forget!

                No one can honestly prepare you for what you will experience once you start descending at the peak of a roller coaster – you have to live it out to appreciate ‘the drop.’ The drop is the best part! And so it goes as a new mommy to Grace and Kalei. I eagerly waited the day the C section would take place at 9:00 A.M. All of the prayers,  happy tears, sad tears, frustrating moments, and difficult conversations were ALL worth it when we heard the cry of our first born, Grace Marie.

 

Tears of joy trickled down my face. Sixty seconds later, Kalei Leena arrived, and the happy tears just kept on rolling.

 

About thirty minutes later I was back in my hospital room HOLDING these precious miracles. It was then, in that moment, that I recognized the meaning behind God’s timing. He wanted us to FULLY appreciate His goodness and His blessings to us –in His time.

  

In my season of expectation of waiting to be pregnant and then waiting to have the twins - a  song that I went to often on my ipod was On and On by Chasen. My favorite lyrics, and the ones that still get me every time are, “But you’re right when you say that you set the time for the plans you make; That in your perfect time your plans and your ways will unfold.”

On and On by Chasen

Awake tonight, I'm breathing the air of the night sky
Listening and wanting an answer to questions you're wondering
I never thought it would ever be possible
To cross the lines we drew that govern what we say and do
But no height and no depth could separate us
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsty.com/chasen-on-and-on-lyrics.html ]
Some say we need a miracle, some say there's no hope at all
But I know that Your love is strong, it goes on and on and on and on
Rise up when it gets us down, it'll be the voice in a blaring crowd
'Cause we know Your love will lead us home
It goes on and on and on and on

I tried my way, it always ends up being a mistake
But You're right when You say
That You set the time for the plans You make
I never thought that I could ever learn to let it go
Somehow it's better when I follow in the paths You show
So I'm here I'm waiting cause I believe

There is no fear of belief
There's just this cold reality
That wants to take me away from You
There is no doubt in my mind
That in Your perfect time
Your plans and Your ways will unfold

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rqh9sHTXcAI

 Along with the song, one of my go to verses that encourages me daily is, Psalm 37:4, “Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.”

Whatever it is that you are desiring or waiting for, I pray that you will have the perseverance to climb the roller coaster to the top. It just may be worth waiting for. 

 

                                     

*Pay special attention to what is written on their onesies:)